I am scared of losing patience,
Which is fading slowly as nothing lasts forever,
It might cut away the small thread of hope,
Hope that everything will be alright,
wish it would last if not forever then at least a little longer.
I’m scared of random flashbacks of the time
When I acted terribly wrong,
I’m scared that my life will be more messed up and
I won’t be able to stay strong.
I am freaking scared of losing you,
What if you don’t want to stay ? What if you too leave just like the others ?
Losing you is one of my worst nightmares.
I’m scared that we won’t be together anymore.
I’m scared of becoming just another name in your memory lane,
I’m scared of being someone shouting your name loudly to draw your attention,
And you won’t even care to hear.
I tried to write all the emotions left unsaid,
But god dammit, I’m scared that you won’t even read.
You can’t imagine how fucked up I am,
how scared I am that you are never gonna value my words,
like some cheap lines from a bad writer.
I’m scared of that too,
To be called a bad writer,
Writing shitty poems..
I’m really scared of many things.
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